My Corner

Well it is just another day, but I am finally able to get back here for posting.  I have been a bit neglectful in doing that.  I just get busy and I think about getting here but I just don’t.

Lately I have been working with some tutorials on making skins for incredimail and also working on scrolling stats for incredimail.  both are very interesting to do, and I enjoy the challenge it gives me.

Had our yearly family reunion over the 4th.  It was nice to see everyone again but was a difficult one to go to as mom was not there.  She was always the family picture taker and made sure that she took pics constantly at every family occasion.  It was so strange to not see her there with a camera in her hand.

My cousin Judy gave me a beautiful photo that she took last year when I had mom there, it was a photo of mom and myself.  Such a good photo so I framed it in a black frame with the word Family on the frame and have it sitting right here beside of me.  I do miss her so.

Outside of that I have been busy with work.  My knee is getting on pretty good, dr put me in a brace to help hold the kneecap where it belongs until everything heals and my muscles get strong enough to hold it themselves.  I still have pain but not as much and mostly in the evening and I think that is mainly due to getting over used during the day.  The muscles really get achy and that kind of pain is hard to get rid of.  My friend “vicoden” helps out lol .

Hubby has been off on his yearly motorcycle trip.  This year he went south to New Orleans and the the Keys, and is currently in Georgia heading home.  I expect him back home here tomorrow night.  It is always a vacation for me too but when he is gone I sure do miss him.  Seems strange being here at home without him to talk to.  He goes to bed early at night due to his work schedule but he is still here in the house and that makes a difference.  Oh well, he will be home soon now.

Got some tags I want to work on and see if I can get up in my site.  Also some more tubes that I finally have ready so am going to get off of here and get that started.

See you later.. and thanks for stopping by to read

Well today was the second day at a new salon that I started at.  Nice place and everyone there is so nice…….. ye gawds, I will never learn everyones name…….. lol there are so many people there….. each so friendly but to remember their names is another story.  I joked yesterday and told them that they need to wear name tags so that I can tell who is who ………..

Am getting on better with my knee although going back to work may not have been the best thing to do yet.. I think it was a bit too soon, but yet the time was right at the same time.  Today I forgot to take pain pills with me and boy at the end of the day I was paying for it.  By the time I got home I could hardly walk so I had to take two pain pills then, and that almost did not do it………  I had forgotten my cane today and I have to remember tomorrow I can’t go through a full day with out it.

outside of that I have not been on the net much this past week.  I have just not felt like it.  Prior to going to work I was full of thoughts of mom.  I always think of mom but sometimes it is stronger than normal, and I wind out in tears and feeling very sad.

I think it is because so much has happened these past 2 years.  taking care of mom for two years and then her passing, and then two operations.  it is just a bit much and I feel like I am drowning……..

Thoughts tonight turn to my writing space here.  Why I ask?  To write in what the net knows as a blog?  Blog….where in the world did that word come from?  What does it really mean? blog, flog, Fog, smog, all these words seem to sound similar but have nothing to do with the meaning or purpose.  What is the purpose one might ask?  Who knows, and who cares.

Life has been cruel the past 2.5 years from my mothers illness, to taking care of her, to loosing her, to say good bye and bury her, I just can’t seem to get back in the groove here on the web.  I seem to have lost interest in many things.

I come to the computer and catch myself surfing the web, thinking that I need to create tubes for my main site, but I don’t…….. that fire is gone and don’t know if it will even be back.

I use to love to tube images.  I would spend hours tubing, and do 2 - 3 every night in preparation to put up on the site.  I think that I have done 2 in 2 months.   It use to be a passion to create graphics, tubes, brushes, loved making gradients, what a collection I have, but has that all gone by the wayside?  I wonder….. told a friend of mine that I lost the desire and fire and she told me to just give it time that it would come back.  I am just not sure.

I am currently recovering from my second surgery this summer.  My Knee…….. it has been going on 4 weeks now since the surgery and I think I am better than I really am.  It kinda jumps up and smacks me when I try to do things like mow the grass.  Started today and had to quit as my knee got to hurting, where being here around the house it is easy to get around, and I sit alot in in the recliner so I think my healing process is further along…….. and  then I have to admit that it is not when I have to start taking pain pills……….

On a different note, the sun has been out this past week and the days are beautiful.  the birds spend the mornings singing and I sit outside in the swing with my morning coffee and listen to the quiet sounds of the early morning.  how comforting that is !!!

will be going to a new salon to work here in the next week or two, that is something I look forward to……. can ya tell that I am a bit stir crazy? Ha !  yes I am……………

I look for a tranquil life as I go from day to day thus the change in themes, this one was just peaceful.  Not sure what I will do with this blog yet, keep it, ditch it………… develop it………….. I have just not decided……….

I started this blog to write about my mothers journey with Alzhimers and things got so hetic I did not get back here to add anything.  My mother became worse and I was with her pretty much 24/7 the last 2 weeks, until she passed away on December 6, 2007.  today was her funeral and I am at such a loss, a loss that is almost unbearable, and not knowing what to do with myself.  How does one say good by to their mother? the one person who loves you no matter what? Is the one person you know is always there, always one you can turn to, no matter what your joy or grief is…………. how?  why?  why is it ment for us to say goodbye to our parents

Welcome to My Journey.  I decided to write here about my journey through the past couple of years with my mother who suffers from Alzhimers.  One of the most horrible diseases I have ever delt with outside of cancer. 

Some feel that it is a type of cancer  (the medical professionals) even though they don’t know.  A continued study of this disease has not given any specific answers, but some say that if they ever find a cure for cancer it will illiminate Alzhimers as well. 

So on that note I am getting things opened up here, even deciding on what layout to use, so please check back as I start on the path of the other side of that gate.